Today I found out that a guy I knew in high school has directed a movie about the Coachella music festival. Which is pretty damn cool when you think about it. He got to make a movie and interview a bunch of interesting bands. It’s the perfect thing for him, as I pretty much remember his only interests being music and filmmaking. Well, that and dating my friend Laila, who is pretty awesome, so that makes sense.
The Zen part is that it didn’t send me into a negative tailspin of “what the hell have I contributed to the world lately?” I’m happy for him. He wasn’t a particularly close friend, but I always liked him and I’m glad he’s been successful. And what’s more, I feel like my time will come. I’m never going to make a movie about the Coachella festival, or any movie about anything for that matter, but I have my own ideas and they’ll come together in their own way and in their own time. That’s not to say that I don’t have to do any work to accomplish some of my more creative goals, but there’s nothing wrong with the fact that I haven’t accomplished them yet.
Zen. Balance. Yep, I like it here.
My best friend in high school was a guy. he was actually in my first wedding as my Man of Honor instead of having a Maid of Honor. We were tight. Then, he married and kids and moved and moved and moved again b/c of the military. I lost track of him until a few weeks ago when I found him. I also found out that he is the Commander in Chief of the Coast Guard (one of the highest ranking military positions out there). I was a little chicken shit about even emailing him b/c after all, what have I accomplished. I'm barely hanging on as CFO of my little 4 person family. Then, a good friend reminded me, that's all crap, I have the most important job in the world, more important the Com. in Chief of the CG...I am a mother...the ultimate in importance in my life. when I finally got a return email from him, he said the same thing, the military is the military but the important job is his job as father....now that rocks honey...so what ever it is you do, it is the most important job in the world for you....and when you have monkeys hanging off of your legs, that's when you will change you idea of important...and that's ok......you do what you do and I'm glad you were able to work through it better than I did, it took me 2 weeks to email my friend b/c I thought he would think I was a nothing! Silly me!