Warning: Tantrum ahead.
I had my follow-up visit with the endocrinologist today. My numbers supposedly look fine, although since I want to get pregnant, she’s considering putting me on insulin because we can’t quite get my fasting blood sugar under 100. I can get it right to 100, but not under it, which is good if you don’t want to get pregnant, but bad if you do. I can’t explain why, but that just makes me want to say every swear word I know over and over again in a no-doubt futile attempt to express my frustration with all of this.
Also, they weighed me. And let me say right now, that I have absolutely, positively, without a doubt lost weight. I am not imagining that. Clothes I haven’t worn since I got married four years ago fit me now. Clothes that I was wearing three months ago are baggy and some of my pants would actually fall off if I didn’t wear them with a belt. People at work stop me in that hall because they can see the difference. So it is clear that I am not delusional.
The last time I went to the doctor, her scale said that I had only lost 8 pounds instead of the 15 I thought I had lost. I was not pleased by this turn of events, but I figured that perhaps my old and busted 35 year old rusty bathroom scale was the problem, so I went and bought a new scale a day or two later. My new scale was a pound away from the doctor’s scale, so I decided that meant I was starting from the same basic place. Now, I weighed myself before my diabetes class on Saturday, and my new scale said that I had hit the magic really losing 15 pounds number. I have to admit, I’m not entirely sure how to judge what my beginning weight was, because I can’t remember if I got the number from the crappy old scale or my checkup in March. Either way, today they weighed me again and the stupid scale said that I had gained a pound since I was there six weeks ago. That is physically impossible. IM. POSS. I. BLE! And yet the doctor won’t give me any credit for the weight I know I have lost. It really pisses me off.
And once again, she was very discouraging about my diet and exercise plan. She seems to think that I won’t lose weight no matter what. And she thinks I’m lying about how much exercise I’m getting and what I’m eating or something. It’s really, really annoying, and I don’t like her at all. I am working very hard. I’ve completely changed my eating habits, my routines and my life to get control of this disease and I don’t need some woman who had talked to me for a total of maybe 45 minutes to be telling me what I am and am not capable of achieving. She even had the nerve to tell me that my goal of getting down to 120 pounds is unrealistic. I’m 5 ft 1. That’s more than I should weigh, but it is where I think I can get. Shouldn’t she be encouraging me to get as fit as possible? I’ll tell you one thing – if that scale doesn’t show that I’ve lost weight when I go in for my next follow-up in two months, I am picking the fucker up and throwing it out a window, Keith Moon style.
oh yes, it is time to send those dr. scales for a trip.....that is so messed up, if it were a pound or two you could understand, clothes, shoes and junk but that much is ridiculous! Keep up the good work and I can't wait for you to guest blog for me!
Are you particularly attached to this doctor? I certainly don't want to stir up a beehive, but perhaps you might consider finding a doctor who doesn't frustrate you as much? (Excuse this diversion if you're actually pleased with your doctor and are just generally feeling frustrated).
It's a tough project, but I think it is very important to your physical and mental health that you can put calm trust into whoever you are paying to help heal you. I've huffed out of two doctor's offices, never to return before I found my current doctor, who rocks. For example? she was kind enough to return my "emergency page" while she was in a crowded restaurant and giggle at me when I complained about horrifficly sore boobies.
Man, I feel your pain. I went to the dr. for a followup check (post surgery) and I KNOW I've lost weight. Not according to them. I'm up 5 lbs.
Dammit!!
i HATE dr. office scales. they are horrible.
besides that, pretty much everything can affect your weight (but usually only a couple of pounds): how much water you've had, how much water you're retaining, what time of day you're weighing in at, what you're wearing, what you've eaten, etc., etc. That's why i hate getting weighed at the doctor's because, unless it's first thing in the morning, just after i've woken up and before i've eaten anything, it is never the same as my home scale.
but don't get discouraged!! all of us here KNOW you are doing an excellent job! and 120 pounds is totally realistic for a 5'1" frame. YOU CAN DO IT! :)
I hate doctor's scales too. Anyway, weight is only half the story. Why don't you try measuring inches once a week too - those results should be more consistent. and then you can show them to your doctor and say "Ha!"
I miss my bitches.
I highly recommend getting another doctor, if that's at all possible. I hate it when doctors act like you're lying. I mean, I'm sure there are patients who do, but I'm not one of them and it pisses me off.
If you lived in the boons, I would understand you have no choice but to stay with Dr. Bitch-- HOWEVER, seeing as you live in a CITY--
DITCH DR. BITCH STAT
yes, definintely throw your doctor out the window! she sounds useless if she can't help you to keep positive while you make significant lifestyle changes...
to me, it sounds like you're really doing well (I read your post over on JAR's site -very inspiring to another rut-dict) anyway, you've probably gained muscle weight, so that means you're healthier. my first year at martial arts, I gained five pounds which I've never lost in the 5 years since then. but I got slimmer at the same time, and I sure know I'm healthier. GL!
Seriously? Eff her. She's wrong. Wronger than her damned wrong-ass scale.
That's all there is to it. You know the changes you've made. You don't need her validation. (though maybe you do need a new doctor)
Don't rely on the scale! I'm sure everyone knows muscle weighs more than fat, so as you're losing fat and gaining muscle you may actually gain weight. Try taking your measurements and tracking your new lifestyle. And feel good that your clothes feel looser!