Why is it always so very hard to get back to work after a few days off? Probably because you are so busy making up for all the work that didn’t get done while you were out. I didn’t have a bad day at work, just an extremely busy one. Which meant that I worked until 7:23, and then had to go to the grocery store, and then got home at almost 9, and still had to exercise, and then got to eat dinner at 10:15.
And that would all be fine. Is fine, although I’d prefer to eat earlier in the evening. I’m quite pleased with myself for working out after I got home so late. The problem is dinner. I love to cook, so much so that I have an entire (small) bookcase of cookbooks. I’m even pretty good at it, and I’m a great baker. But lately I’m so worried about what I can and can’t eat, what is healthy for me, how much I’ve already eaten for the day and what my blood sugar is going to be, that I just can’t enjoy making dinner. Tonight as I sat at my desk at work thinking about going to the grocery store, the thought of coming up with one more low carb, low fat, low sugar, healthy vegetarian meal had me ready to snap. I just can’t get excited about cooking dinner anymore. I don’t look forward to eating. I’m not interested in making anything.
The rest of the day is fine. I’ve got my breakfast and my allotted snacks all sorted out. I could happily eat oatmeal every day for the rest of my life. Lunch is usually leftovers or something from a salad bar. And my veggies and hummus and string cheese and whole wheat crackers are all tasty and satisfying. Every once in a while I even get to eat fruit, a popsicle or some rice pudding. Dinner, on the other hand, is my new nemesis. My big plan for tonight was to pick up something from the Whole Foods deli, but all their dishes were very meat focused tonight. So I totally lamed out and bought an assortment of frozen dinners, arranged them attractively on the counter and told John to pick whatever he wanted. Classy. So now I feel guilty for not preparing a healthy or yummy dinner, and I’m still left with the same dinner dilemma I had before. Stupid dinner.
girl if I had to eat dinner 10;15, I'd be a crabby cakes too...I'm sorry I can't help with the food issues...I can't cook very well and we sure don't eat healthy around here...keep up the good work though, youa re doing aweseom!