John went to Colorado this weekend for a brief visit so he could attend our newest niece’s christening. We didn’t have much notice, so he had to keep the trip short. He left Saturday morning and came back this afternoon.
Things I learned while John was gone:
1) When you get up at 4:45 am, it is possible to get to BWI and back before dawn. At one point, I had the highway all to myself – not another car in sight.
2) Also, when you get up at 4:45 am, you will think it is lunchtime at 10:15 in the morning.
3) I can get a lot done when I’m home by myself all day. I vacuumed the whole house, reorganized the kitchen, filed a bunch of papers, redid the closet in the spare bedroom, and more. Apparently John is more distracting than I realized.
4) Seamus can focus on pining for the human who isn’t home just as seriously as he can focus on food. He was fine for a few hours, but then the lying in front of the door, staring out the window and the sighing began.
5) I am so used to having John around, that it is hard to sleep without him in the house. As I lay in my bed not falling asleep even though I was exhausted, I realized that John has not traveled without me since we got married. I’ve gone away on business, and for weekends with my girlfriends, and to see my brother, but whenever John has hit the road, it has been with me. We never go to bed at the same time, but somehow, just knowing that he wasn’t downstairs was enough to keep me restless. At one point I got so tired that complete irrationality set in, and I started worrying that the house would catch on fire and I’d have to get Seamus and our valuables out by myself. Seriously. Then I told my brain to shut the hell up, and finally fell asleep.
6) While it was fun to hog the computer, eat whatever I wanted for dinner without having to ask “what do you feel like eating?” and watch a movie I knew John would have mocked mercilessly, 32 hours apart was plenty of time for me to miss him, and to be delighted when he returned.

I think Mr. & Mrs. Penguin posts are my favorite.
I would love to have a weekend to just "leave" and I know Wayne would too. ...I wouldn't want to be home alone without him though...that' s pitiful uh? I'm like you though, I run through every worst case scenario there is.....